Life is so cool right now. I’m nearing the end of one road and setting my feet on the edges of another. This new path is exciting and full of amazing opportunities. What’s interesting is my comfortableness with the unknown.

There is no fear (OK, not much) anymore. It’s more like the anticipation for the things to come that I don’t know I don’t know yet. Delicious Ambiguity. That’s where I am. It’s the sweet taste of the unknown about to emerge. A rising up is taking place. I feel an energy shift, a mental shift and a spiritual shift all taking place, and the universe is shifting and responding and providing for me in such abundant ways.

Synchronicities are everywhere. I often feel like Alice in Wonderland in Las Vegas! The signs are actually that bright. My days are all lit up with messages. Turn the radio on to hear a certain lyric that makes something click. Talk to a stranger at the coffee shop and turns into a prospective client. Check my in-box and find a message from a friend linking me to a website with information that comforts me.

I feel more joyful and peaceful. I’m staying present focused in the middle of all of these future opportunities that I’m attracting to me like a kid to candy. Do you ever find yourself kind of floating? That’s how I feel right now. Floaty. The calm before the storm. I’m confident the rain from this storm will nourish and invigorate me. It will wash away the last of the cocoon. I’ll emerge the truly dazzling, colorful and radiant butterfly. Spring is here and the season is changing. So am I. Ever evolving.

How are you evolving?

Keep it delicious,
Kam

Friday night I went to a home lingerie/sex toy party. Mix a bunch of sassy, beautiful, and not so bashful 30-50 year old women, add in a little martini madness, shake over ice and what do you have? I could tell you, but the theme of the night was “What happens at the party, stays at the party”!

Last week was a low energy week. I’d been run down after the weekend workshop and took Wednesday off to recharge. My biggest challenge right now, is working my full-time job and coming home in the evening to get working on my business. My real day begins at 5 o’clock, because once I get home, the real fun begins. With that comes an energy zap from time to time.

I realized the real energy downer is not living in the present moment!! I was thinking more about how great it will be in the future (when I will BE my business) than living in the here and now. Aha! With that recognition, I tuned back in and tapped into the joy of NOW. Which brings me back to the sex party.

Here’s how these parties work: A rep from the sexy company sets up a display of goodies and flirty clothes. She walks through the features and benefits of each. The clothes weren’t Victoria’s Secret caliber and the toys were stuff you can find at any romantic boutique located in a strip mall near you (no pun intended).

The real fun was bonding with these wonderful women. I sat back and observed how differently people responded to these toys. Some played with them and laughed and joked. Others shrank into their seats or slipped into the corner and became quiet. Interesting how we all come from such different perspectives about sex and intimacy. Hmmm…

Anyway, once the sexy rep left, my friend turned on her spinning disco light, the guys came home we danced our asses off! I haven’t danced like that in a long time. It felt so good to just BE in the moment. It was electrifying to dance and laugh and sweat and sing at the top of my lungs.

I noticed I was in the kitchen getting water at 10:10, 11:11, and 12:12. Some think when you notice the time like that, it’s angels trying to send you a message. You’re supposed to be aware of what you’re feeling or what is going on when you notice the time like that. I smiled as I pulled out of the driveway heading home as the clock on my dashboard flashed 1:11.

To me, the angel’s were telling me to BE in the present moment. To dance and sing and laugh. Some days it might be to cry and journal and take a hot bath. Whatever mood I’m in. Whatever flavor I feel like being. Whether it’s 2:22 a.m. or 12:12 p.m., I get the message. It’s crystal clear…BE where I’m at!

Be blessed wherever you’re at dear readers. And dance like no one is watching!

Much love,
Kam

Took today off. I attended a workshop all weekend and there was a lot of “peeling of the onion” going on. It was a great learning experience and I took away a lot from it. But not having any down time this weekend and being around a lot of people fighting off the pre-spring flu bug, I feel zapped!

I told a friend I wasn’t feeling myself and she asked if I felt “squishy”. I laughed and asked, “What does that mean”? She told me when she was a kid and would tell her mom she didn’t feel well, her mom would poke her in the arm and say, “Yep. You feel squishy”.

Now I have a word to use when I’m feeling just a tad, not-so-Kam-like. Not really sick, but not quite right either. Sometimes we just need permission to feel a little squishy. I get uncomfortable when I feel like this. The old voices come back and whisper in my ear. “You can’t take a day off”, “What will people think?”, “They’re expecting big things from you”, and “What are you – lazy?”.

It’s high time to squish those voices once and for all. I here by grant myself (and you dear readers) the right to take a day and revel in your squishy-ness. For me that looks like, lounging all day in comfy clothes, drinking lots of green tea, taking extra vitamin c and having a little dog therapy on the couch. I love cuddling up with my furry friends when I’m feeling funky. Stinky, dog-breath kisses always seem to make everything better.

Next time you’re feeling not quite yourself, grant yourself permission to feel squishy. Don’t feel guilty about it either. The world will get along without you, (just for a little while) and you’ll be better prepared to shine your light after recharging your batteries.

Yours in squishy-ness,
Kam