Been kinda funk-tified lately. I’m only human! Have been called “obnoxiously optimistic” by an ex-boyfriend (notice I said ex) in the past. You’re familiar with a perkier Kam-post, but this last weekend was a whirlwind.

My dad and step-mom were in town. And Sat. night at dinner (with my sister and her husband) the conversation took a wrong turn down the “when you get married and have kids” lane. Whoa! Hold the phone. Isn’t my life just dandy the way it is? Why will things be “good enough” if/when I have the hubby and kids scenario?

I got defensive. I felt like I was under attack by what Bridget Jones called, the “smug marrieds”.  What really pissed me off was the fact that I felt I had to justify that my life is rich and full as is. My business is my baby right now. My love, attention and focus is all about living the juiciest life I can and sharing the details with you guys. The ups, downs, and all arounds. I’m creating the life I want to live one day at a time. And just because I’m not married, nor have a child, (yet) doesn’t mean I’m not loving the hell out of it!

Can I get an AMEN?!!

Maybe it was my own perception that was a bit off. OK, so if I’m the coach, then I need to examine this the way I would with a client. Hmmm…what do I NEED from my family? Do I NEED their understanding about how important this business is to me? Do I need them to accept the fact that I might not get married? Might not have children? I mean I might, but that remains to be seen. What would it feel like if I let them off the hook? What would it feel like if I were to release my need for them to “get it”?

Umm, can you say…aaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh? It would feel like I could breathe again. I could wave goodbye to the big fat “shoulds” and say hello to MY life. My beautiful, succulently-synchronistic, funkadelic, know no strangers, nature & animal lovin’, learning to meditate, yoga-booty-balletin’, music junkie, book-a-holic, blog-o-rific, spirit-seeking, money conscious, business designing, higher vibration, intuition exploring, deep soul diving, living as if, divine right timing, truth seeking, love spreading, beauty creating, sacred sensualist, many colored days, pocket full of rainbows, BIG, FAT, juicy, ripe, shiny, life!

Mmmmm. Delicious!

To my anger and frustration, I say bye-bye. To my old racket and monkey mind, I say kiss off. To my inner-child, who sometimes thinks she isn’t good enough - I say I LOVE YOU just the way you are! To my family who is near and dear to my heart in all your wacky ways, I say this is me…revel in it and take me as I am. Cuz it just doesn’t get any more real than this. Me and God/the Universe/Spirit/the Higher Power got work to do, and it starts here. With me. Just me. If hubby and kids enter the scenario down the line, so be it. But today there’s just me…and that’s enough.

What un-met need can you satisfy by being just you, as is, right now?

Keep on keepin’ on,
KK